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[Jul. 16th, 2008|10:44 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Osker - Someday | ] |
So as I'm now sitting here, I've reached the conclusion that, it's not me, it's everyone else, and I'm not sure if this journal is on private or not, but forreal, fuck people. I don't give a fuck. They suck.
I don't give a fuck if I'm being inconsiderate or some shit, fuck people. No matter where they go they suck. And I'm not gonna lie, I miss my girlfriend right now, but I'm kinda mad cause shes out at some club with her friends that she supposidely hates, but whys she there then? shes off today and tomorrow, she could come to Pittsburgh. That's fucking dumb.
That's all I got. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 16th, 2008|10:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Angels and Airwaves - Distraction | ] |
*sigh*
Maybe it is just me. I know I'm usually a really negative, pessimistic person, but maybe I've been super wrong...
Blahh... |
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| Oh God, I hate this part. |
[Jun. 12th, 2008|12:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Loved Ones - Hurry Up and Wait | ] |
This week has been gut wrenching.
Lillah's at the beach, and I've been worried like mad, just becuase I hate people, and I don't trust any of them, but I trust her... I just get really, really nervous... blaahhh.... Plus it's finals week, which has been killing both mentally and physically. Like forreal, I think I nearly had like 3 mental breakdowns. So much stress. Words can't even describe. I'm just so damn ready for Saturday. Tomorrow is my last class for the quarter, which will also be an amazing day... Then I just have to wait for Lillah to get home on Saturday. I'm so nervous. I really don't know what to do... Blaaaaaah. Fucking. Blah. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 5th, 2008|11:19 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tom Brokaw - 1968 | ] |
Blah. Today is my last class for the week. I'm so fuckin busy, and tired, and ready for this quarter to be over. Lillah's coming to get me tonight. And, I'm so excited to go home and see her... Not to much longer... Oh. I mnved. I'm in the new house. On Mt. Washington. I fucking love it. Jake has an espresso machine, and fuck, I'm wired. It's great. |
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| Oh boy... |
[May. 7th, 2008|07:59 pm] |
It's spring! yay! it was like summer weather a few weeks ago, not so much anymore. but oh well. I like spring. I feel like... I'm old, but I'm getting younger in spring. Ya know? like, I guess it's called a revitilization or some shit. I got a house. I got debt. I still have the Lillah. Somewhat Discorded Youth with about 30 side projects (or one) so whatever. Midterms are over. I totally hate this oen teacher. I have no car. still. Blah. I don't wanna update anymore.
oh yeah I'm in class rinow. weird. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 3rd, 2008|11:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jawbreaker - Fireman | ] |
I'm back at school, getting ready to go home and play a show this weekend after class. I'm boarderline content. I really just wanna hang out with Lillah, and I really just wana play music, really, really loud. Matt is coming out to get me, then we're gonna jam with Tommy K tomorrow, then practice, then sleep (hopefully) then show.
Lillah visits Pitt Johnstown tomorrow, makes me nervous, but Yeah... it needs to happen. Umm... whoo. yeah. Classes are boarderline, okay, and shitty. all my classes sucked until last night, I had a sweet design class, which I think I have something similar to that today.
Also, yesterday I missed Michelle Obama at CMU. Oh well, go Hillary! Yeah. About that. I mean. I really want Hillary to win, but I think me and the Dunmire family are the only ones who feel that way. And my parents.
On that note, my granfather thinks Obama is the anti-Christ.
sigh.
jump off a building. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|12:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Gaslight Anthem - Drive | ] |
I haven't done this for a really long time. Mainly beucase I have a real journal... but anyway. I'm waiting for a class to start. things are good. Lillah is good. Band is okay... I'm really just writing in here to say my love for the Gaslight Anthem. Hands down, amazing. Next thursday I should be seeing them with the loved ones.... Fuck yeah.
Ballsack. |
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| CAN'T GET THE STINK OUT |
[Dec. 10th, 2007|02:00 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Strung Out - Never Speak Again | ] |
Akhaggh. Sweet. So, the quarter is literally 7 classes (4 days) from being over. Oh fucking Christ I am excited. I hate this quarter. It just sucks. Nothing like last, nothing like I wanted. But it's okay. It's almost over and next quarter will be amazing.
So, we leave on Thursday, Dale and I that is. Lillah is going to come out Wednesday and stay.. and help clean and stuff... which is why she is great. She really means a lot to me. She stayed Friday night too... which was great. I just really can't wait to go home to hang out with her... She's so cool... most of the time. Almost all of the time. I guess everyone has their moods.
So life is good. besides this quarter. I love Pittsburgh, my band, my friends (mainly Matt and Lillah more than anyone), everything is just going good. Matt is still moving out here this summer... that's when everything will really get good. it's going to be the best time of life, forsure.
I often think about how I could never go back to High School life, and I truly couldn't. Fuck that. I still don't drink like everyone said I would, and I still don't plan on it anytime soon. I know that seems random, but while living in the dorms it's really not.
Fuck me in the shit. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 5th, 2007|04:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Descendents - One More Day | ] |
Ugh... ah. ugh. almost over.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 13th, 2007|11:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Postal Service - Sleeping In | ] |
So I'm doing this whole waiting thing.. again. I don't now. Blah. I hate this.
I keep thinking I have to shit too, and I go and like nothing happens, so translation, I'm getting sick. That sucks. I'm not having fun right now. I should really try calling Lillah again... but. I don't know why.
Fuck me in the shit... |
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[Oct. 29th, 2007|03:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Endless Mike and the Beagle Club - Lock and Keystone | ] |
Holy shit, I had fun at a local show this weekend |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 20th, 2007|11:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  morose | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Early November - Pretty Pretty | ] |
All I really do is wanna talk to Lillah. I just did, but she's way drunk, and I hate that. I hate drinking. But I really like Lillah... so much...
I'm coming home next weekend, I get to see her... |
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| Disconnect |
[Oct. 6th, 2007|01:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Osker - Going On The Instincts | ] |
I hate drinking.
I really do.
I don't really have much of a reason to. I just do. I think it's such a waste, of everything. I hate drinking.
I hope I never turn into that. The only reason people drink is to run away from themselves becuase they can't find anything better to do. Fuck that. Seriously. I think it's totally different, going out, having fun. But Fuck "afraid" drinking. I hate that so much.
Ass. Piss Ass.
People piss me off. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|04:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indifferent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Screeching Weasel - Every Night | ] |
So, Kirsten and I aren't together anymore. And I think she wants to be, but I don't think I want to be. I'm nervous. I don't want to hurt her... That's all I can think about. I don't want to hurt her. But it's just so dramatic. And there's kind of someone else... that I like. Some from before. And I'm pretty sure she likes me. And stuff... and I feel bad. Blah. All I can think about doing though is calling Kirsten. But I can't. I can't tell her how I really feel, cause I know she's having a rough time right now and I don't want to make it worse...
Oi.
I need to call her before I go to class though... and that's coming up...
Humph. |
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[Sep. 20th, 2007|04:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Me First And The Gimme Gimmes - San Francisco | ] |
I seriously don't know what to think about anything. At all. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2007|11:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | H2O - Thicker Than Water | ] |
Ahh. Fuck yeah.
I kinda miss high school. Kirsten start's tomorrow. Maybe I just really miss her. I think I just eally miss her. I get to see her Friday, I'm so excited. The only thing I hate about college (besides the price) and this town, is the lack of her. She's incredible, I just... Miss her. Anyway. Things are good. Fuck your couch nigga.
Some people here drive me nuts. But I'll deal. Maybe I'll explain later.
I just erall ymiss my girlfriend. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 21st, 2007|01:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Osker - The Mistakes You Make | ] |
Ahh, so I don't hate it here anymore. I just miss Kirsten. But that's it. I actaully like it here a whole lot. I know where fun places are and stuff now. sweet.
Matt's coming this weekend too. very nice. |
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| What does it take to get a drink in this place.. |
[Aug. 9th, 2007|09:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Postal Service - This Place is a Prison | ] |
I'm so lonely.
I don't know what to do. I hate this. I really do. I don't hate the college, I don't hate the down, I don't hate my life, I hate this feeling. And it happens everynight. I just don't know what to do. I need some form of attention. But I need to be a lone. I want to be with two people... That's it.
I just need a break. I need a fucking break.
It's just awful, having that feeling of fucking nothing to do.
Fuck. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 9th, 2007|01:16 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Osker - The Body | ] |
I feel awful. Not sick. I'm not depressed, I just feel like I'm missing something... I'm so glad I'm going home this weekend. I've been writing constantly, and tonight I wrote two songs that I actaully cried over. I've never done that, and I'm not sure why... I just feel awful... I just wanna be with Kirsten, I wanna be with Matt, I wanna be with my friends... Ugh. I feel Awful.
I guess the term is Lonely. Thank you mood setter.
Fuckers... |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 6th, 2007|01:13 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Osker - Animal | ] |
Oh God I hate this part... |
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